drove to the mountain brow to walk my dog. its hard to see because it was cloudy - the lake in the distance is lake ontario. the other picture where the lake isn't in view, is pointing towards niagara falls. the street lights run on solar panels! i took these pictures at about 8pm. this is my favourite kind of weather
I am blonde now. Too many grey hairs makes my roots look bad, so the good thing about going grey is going blonde easier. I have been doing it myself, and now that I know about toning, it actually looks good. lots of compliments :)( Collapse )
So much has changed since my last post. Which is also why I have been away.
We moved back to Hamilton. I like it better than Burlington tbh. Less snobby, more diverse, and everything is way closer so I don't have to drive as much. I got a permanent position at my favourite house. Our new house is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Maddy is in kindergarten and the older kids are both in high school now. Amber works at McDonalds.
I'm about to go in for a night shift in about a half hour. I worked four hours this afternoon and a 13 hour shift yesterday. (I had to - I don't like to do those often).
Today I barely ate but I don't feel that hungry and have a ton of energy. When I got home I was cleaning a lot like when I get baked but I'm not baked and I'm wondering if it's cause THC gets stored in fat cells so maybe it's coming out if I'm running on my stores right now? I think i read that somewhere before. I had a protein bar for breakfast at like 10 and then a coffee (with a little sugar) at 2:30 and then 2 skittles at 6 and then one perogie at 730. very strange indeed. normally i eat a normal amount of food for a person but too much for me apparently at this age and for not working out since i've been steadily gaining weight. I started working out again last week. from sat-sat I worked out four times. Since last saturday i have not at all. But i have worked 25 hours plus then 8 tonight. I have the next few days off so I can continue with the workouts then. I finally went rollerblading and my face was redder than ever. It was fun.
Maybe I will post more. Probably a lot of dolls and stuff. I've been making a lot of amigurumi. I actually really love it and that's the great thing about night shift, I can sit and crochet for a few hours if I want cause we have so much down time and it's better if I'm on the main floor so its an easy way to stay there. Its better if I sit more at the beginning of the shift cause later in the night is when you'd get tired so you need to keep moving. I really love the place I work at. I've been there for 6.5 years now. Maybe if i was doing things over, for practical reasons I would have been a lawyer instead. (regular office hours, don't get your hands dirty, make TONS of money, can still help people in a meaningful way, no uniform, and I'd be very good at it) but for the weird route i took to end up wear I am, I do really like my job. The other day i made french toast for a client for breakfast and he really enjoyed it and he pointed at himself and me and was saying we are family. It was really sweet.
change is good
when people show you who they are, believe them the first time - says Maya, and she's right. it's hard and unfortunate (a lot) but it's important to really believe them. to be strong enough to accept it and move on and be confident and thrive
i am so sick of putting other ungrateful people ahead of myself and compromising my ideals. no payout for all that effort. i am over it. I will survive and I will grow and I will be fine. Just fine.
A quiet place, a safe space. Again. and better than before. like two steps forward and one step back, stepping forward again.
Couldn't tell, could ya?